I've used this summer as a way to just mellow out and find my own stasis again. I find the more relaxed I am, the more I take part willfully in intellectual and otherwise interesting things. I feel like I did when I was in high school and before, back when I was more mentally active like this because I had less pressing issues in my life.

So I bought a bunch of books I intend to read, and I've been busy playing 'Animal Crossing' on the Game Cube, a Japanese game about living and participating in a little town with an array of animal characters. The game progresses in real-time, so when it's night here, it's night there, and when winter is here, it's all snowy there, etc.
They also have events a couple times a month, like this month they had a fireworks show on the 4th. Our town founding day is coming up too, where the mayor gives out presents. I'm busy expanding my collection of furniture for my little house that I keep paying to expend. Soon I'll have an attic I can decorate as well. The game even incorporates Feng Shui as a way to increase your luck regarding items you get from interacting with other characters and stuff.

Oh well, anyway, it's fun. My friend Amanda visits in two days - she will teach me how to knit/crochet in a variety of styles. It's something I've wanted to learn for a while. In turn I will take her to the local parks and shops, and we will otherwise live it up until she leaves Friday. Somehow I need to fit working into all of this. She's very interested in seeing the insect collection at the Natural History Survey where I work, so hopefully she can come help me out.

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So I'm sick, for the first time in months. It's not a head cold though, it's a wicked sore throat. Hurts to swallow and talk. Plus just the general weak feeling chronic pain brings on. I really, really hope it's not strep throat.

Ever notice though, how when you're sick, you wake up feeling horrible and then feel less bad the longer you're up doing things? It's counter-intuitive. Sleep should heal all immediately; I demand it as a frequent patron of sleep.



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Hey everyone that reads this:

I've recently been on somewhat of a hiatus from dA because my subscription ran out for a little while there and I can't stand using the site without it. I suppose I'm spoiled, what can I say. I just got re-subscribed tonight though, so it's all good. I'm also trying to wrap up the semester at university, and trying to get my employment situation straightened out. So I don't know when I'll be around more frequently, hopefully very soon.

For anyone interested in total random pointlessness, you can visit my livejournal. Be warned, it's lame. I put stuff in it that I don't want to dump all over this journal. But I update it like, daily. (All your preconceptions about livejournals are probably right conerning mine, except I have decent grammatical skills. )

I'm getting a tripod for my belated birthday so more decent pictures might be forced out of me as a result, we'll have to see.

Thanks for your support, =sayra. I will soon be back around to comment on your lovely recent stuff.

In keeping with the at-least-once-a-month update tradition, here's one now.

I feel like hell today, not physically but mentally. I don't know why. It's not the people important to me that are doing it, so don't feel responsible, people. I guess it's just circumstances blended with irrationality or moodiness on my part.

I'm not usually moody. But ever since I was 16, when my health and body changed forever, I have been in a state of... almost like a limbo, never feeling fully just THERE with my body, as in normal/comfortable/stable. I don't mean self-image wise, just hormonally and metabolically and all that.
A lab mate asked me the other day... "do you feel normal?" (this was in reference to my health stuff and the after-issues). I thought for a second and told her, "you know, I don't know what normal is anymore."

And it's true. I've thought that to myself often, but telling that to someone else, that I barely know, made me realize it even more. I am never just normal, I always have to make sure I take this or that pill at a certain time just so I don't get migranes and illness.

Randall asked me the other day (not in an insensitive way, just a curious way), "how long without your pills do you think it would take you to die?" And I didn't have an answer for him, because I don't know. A week? Two? I know I would for sure be miserable for the entire time up until that point, worse every hour.

Once freshman year I was sitting in the largest lecture hall in Lincoln Hall for my mythology class, and I wondered; if they locked all the doors now and locked us all in here for the rest of our lives, with food provided, what sort of strange society would we form in here? Would there be violence? Reproduction? What kind of cliques and subculture..."

And then it hit me - I'd be dead.

There would be no subculture to integrate myself into, no need to try and lead or follow or organize the people in the hall, I wouldn't be around long.

Maybe that's why I feel so mortal all of the time. At least I think it's getting to me more today than usual.

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Stuff going on in my life, from the mundane to the slightly less mundane:

- messy place
- kinda poor (nothing new)
- using great new video rental store that rocks
- three exams to go this coming week
- hopefully got an A on the one I took Friday
- the worst voice acting I've ever heard is on the English dubbed version of Bible Black
- last week of school before spring break
- have to travel 3 hours to Elgin two weekends in a row
- get money the second time!
- birthday on April 7th
- one of my car headlights is out
- Erin is giving me her microwave
- new cell phone that rocks, mostly because old one sucked
- GoldenBoy is a really funny anime
- Bounce Ko-gals is next up for movies (about Japanese call-girls)
- I want new clothes, many of mine are old and lame
- I have a lot of research I'm supposed to do but I'm putting it off
- This has been a good weekend so far

That's all for now. No protist at the moment, I'm too lazy to make an image. You'll just have to look one up for yourself or something.

Hope everyone is well.

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